When Daddy Bug (my husband) created this blog for me, my first thought was, “How am I going to keep up with two blogs?”
In March of 2007, I started writing in a blog to document my journey through infertility. At the time, we were 7 months into trying to conceive and had just had our first visit with the Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE). I thought having a blog would keep family and friends informed of our journey so they could pray specifically for us. Through time, the blog turned into so much more. Complete strangers, from all over the world, started reading and praying. The blog became a place for me to be completely honest and open and share about my strong desire to have a baby and the extreme disappointment that would follow after another failed cycle.
God performed a miracle in my life over that year and used my blog to allow other people see the Hand of God at work. More than anything, as I walked the road of infertility, I desired that God receive glory in and through my unwanted, unplanned for circumstances. While I created the blog to keep family and friends informed, God knew that the blog would be used to give all the glory to Him for the great miracle He was going to perform.
After three failed IUIs, surgery to remove endometriosis and a failed attempt at IVF, I knew God was asking me to surrender to Him my desire for pregnancy and childbirth and pursue adoption. In March of 2009, I felt an urgency to get our adoption paperwork turned into the agency we had decided to use.
On April 9, 2009, I turned in our paperwork to the agency and the lawyer told me that very same day that an adoption had fallen through that week and if we wanted a baby in JUNE, we could have one!
Talk about God’s perfect timing!
Forty-eight days later, our daughter, Little Bug, entered this world. Eighty-one hours after her birth, she became our little girl.
God put the desire in my heart for motherhood long before I was even a married woman! When Daddy Bug and I married in 2007, we had plans to start a family right away. God, however, had other plans for us. He had something more planned for us. As we have journeyed through the road of infertility we have learned that God’s plan for our life is far better and far greater than anything we could plan for ourselves.
Our journey to Little Bug is proof of that!
While I am still infertile and apart from another miracle of God will most likely never conceive naturally or with the help of modern medicine, my focus is now walking the road of motherhood.
I’m 6 weeks into this new journey and contrary to what I first believed, the road of motherhood is anything but easy! After going through infertility, I think it is just very easy to assume once you have that baby in your arms everything will just be a bed of roses. I quickly learned that is not the case after bringing Little Bug home.
So this new blog is a place for me to document my life as a mother to Little Bug (and the other Little Bugs that are sure to follow). Writing is as essential to my life as breathing. I’ve actually kept a journal since I was 15 years old. When I started blogging in 2007, my journals became my blog.
And so, this new blog begins as I record life with Little Bug – the good days, the hard days and everything in between!
